Friday, December 16, 2011

hectic day to hectic brain

                                                   My daughter Sarah for Christmas pictures this year.

So I don't know if I've mentioned before that I keep my neice during the day. Her name is Scarlett Claire and she gets called by either name on a regular basis, along with keeping her I've started school and and I also have a 2 hour night job cleaning a bank.  Overall I've been pretty busy and loosing lots of sleep over it.  In the end I believe it to be worth it though.  The job will help with us moving in the new coming year, hopefully March.  Having Scarlett here is tough sometimes but it's just because I'm still getting used to having two kids running around screaming from 7:30am till 5:30pm.  Then from 6-8 I clean at the bank. Now during all that I still have to make sure I complete all neccessary school work. OI!! Can't say my life is boring now and that is really good for me.  Keep your fingers crossed for me that we are able to find a place soon to move to and that everything works out.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

So it's been a hard weeka nd today I thought it had finally calmed down until I found out that the doctors think my sister has Ovarian Cancer. She's only 19 and does in no way deserve this.  I just don't what to think about this turn of fate and am really hoping further tests prove them wrong.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Hello People

I get to cook Thanksgiving dinner this year for my husband and girl! Yay! Plus tomorrow is going to be cold and I love the cold so excited for that.  Started school, not too bad but I know the hard part is coming up. Overall good mood today and my husband's birthday is today too!

Friday, November 11, 2011

feeling of lonliness...maybe

Husband is out with friends tonight and I'm home with my daughter and my landlord who I just don't want to be around. I can literally smell the alcohol reeking off of him.  And I'm just feeling really lonely and down tonight.  I need to get out of the house and do some holiday shopping but I just don't have the money for that and I'm so scared that I won't be able to provide my daughter with a Christmas this year because we're so much in debt.  I hate this feeling that I would be failing her and I just don't what to do.  Sorry for the oh pity me but I just don't know what else to do but rant.

Happy Veteran's Day

To all the Military Personnel out there thank you for your time and service.