Wednesday, December 18, 2013


A breath, deeply in and out
A smile
Love in pure form
Calmness when storms rage
Sacrifice of oneself
Time for what is needed
Joy that fills the heart
Miracles happen everyday, we just do not pause to see them. We have become blind to what graces up. What motivates the race. Paying it forward or simply acknowledging someone else. Giving your time. Time is so precious to us all and we guard it like it is necessary to survive. How can you change someone else's life by just giving time?

In my own life I know how to create a miracle. I can give time to my daughter who is in so desperate need of it. I can give my time to my Lord who sacrifices all for us. My husband who simply needs to know that I appreciate him and love him, who just needs a back rub. I am selfish and guard all I have. This is horrible and needs to be amended.

Tonight I am breathing YAHWEH. I am breathing the name of the Lord so that I may remind myself how I am so blessed and how I have not done any of this and it is all in HIS Name, His glory, His love. YAHWEH, our very breath calls for Him. How do we ignore the call so blatantly apparent? YAHWEH. Oh Father help me.

Miracles still happen

It has only been a few short months since I have renewed my faith in Christ and God. Since then I have been immeasurably blessed. I have found amazing friends and have strengthened my relationships with my friends. I have become a better person. So many people have helped improve our lives. Through God's love and their outstanding love a couple from church has given us a car. Just tonight a sister church of my church delivered Christmas presents to us because we were thought of. They also gave us gift cards and one of those is enabling us to get groceries. I was especially starting to worry about that. Praise God in all His glory because though I do not deserve such richness in life of the wonderful people who have aided myself and my family I am eternally grateful for them. Eternally grateful to God for providing me with all of my friends and their amazing love. Whether they believe in Christ or not all of my friends exemplify His enduring love.

Sunday, December 15, 2013

The Bug is FOUR

My little Bug is four years old. December 15th, she was born at 11:49 p.m. The time has flown by and it is amazing to me how much she can do or has learned since last year. Her ability to understand things amazes me at times. Her eagerness to learn, love, laugh is a balm to my fearful heart. She is social and honestly we don't know how that happened. She is polite and thankful. My little Bug is a good child and that is not just my mom blinds, she really is to her core. We are celebrating her birthday after church with the people who love her and love to celebrate her. Pictures will come. Another post will come later after all the partying is over.

Friday, December 13, 2013

Woot Woot!

I HAVE MY PERMIT!! SO IN TWO MONTHS I CAN GET MY LICENSE!! This coming week I get my car!! GOD IS GRACIOUS! I will finally be able to drive for the first time. I am so happy. We will be moving soon as well and still do not know but I know there are great things ahead even if bad things have to happen with them. We are so blessed.

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Things for Sarah to know.

1. Mommy tells you to not run and not play on the stairs because I care for your safety, not to ruin your fun.

2. I force you to eat the food I give you and not cave in to your desires because it sucks if you are older and a picky eater.

3. We keep a regular bedtime because frankly I can not handle you getting up before 7 and before my coffee.

4. You are the boss of your body and can tell people no. I hold the right to put you in time out when you sass me.

5. Along with the above rule I still have the right to tell you what you can and can not wear while you live under my roof.

6. You can not eat stuff off the ground because germs will attack you and make you sick.

7.  Trust me, one day you will appreciate me.

8. Sorry love but my life does not revolve around you. I aim to raise you to be a good person and to hopefully benefit the world but the universe does not revolve around you.

9. You will have a job as soon as you are of legal age. Deal with it.

10. I love you so much and that will never change.

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

short ramblings

Sorry you all, you're just going to have to get used to me never being a daily blog. I try. I even set an alarm but it is often that I am busy doing something else. I am trying to perfect my time management. We went to see Santa today and Sarah loved it. We went to Bass Pro Shop for the first time and now she wants to learn how to shoot a bow and arrow and gun. She gets that from her Aunt. I think a new door opened for my family today and I am hoping it works out because it is a wonderful opportunity. This is all for right now because I am exhausted and need to crash.

Thank you for reading.