Back on Track, Right in time for Holidays

Okay so I am back on track with exercising today and still maintaing my diet which is going to be hard in about 12 days. I know most people who are on diets are going to try to eat sparse on Thanksgiving but I am telling you right now that is not going to be me. I am going to stuff my face and enjoy and deal with the consequences later, to me Holidays are meant to be enjoyed with family and that means eating tons of food with them on Thanksgiving. The day after Thanksgiving I will decorate for Christmas and I am trying my hardest to wait! Bug is excited of course because she knows she will be a big help for decorating the tree.  I just love the feel the Holidays give as well because it feels as though no matter what, everything will be okay. And looking at that face in the picture, how can it not be believed that happiness will prevail.

Back on Track tomorrow

With the exercising and school because after I pinched the muscle in my arm I got sick. Have been sick since. Now I just have a really sore throat and I can exercise through that. I have been keeping up with the healthier eating and I think that is because I am craving healthier things lately. I don't why. My main thoughts lately are how I am going to make 2013 my year to succeed. I want to be able to financially aid my family by having a job but even during seasonal hours I still can't get one. I need to figure something I can do from home because I have no idea when I will be allowed to drive if ever because of my vision. The daycare thing has dwindled seriously and it is even hard to find work with that. So after Thanksgiving and before I have to rush for Christmas I need to seriously sit down and figure out what I am going to do.

Halloween night.

Hope everyone had a good and safe Halloween. Bug had tons of fun and was completely worn out. All in all a good night.

Happy Halloween!!

Little Bug got this outfit from her Aunt Vicky, her costume pictures will come later. Hope you all have fun!!

Day 3 on hold

Today was supposed to be day 3 for the 30 day shred but I pinched a nerve in my arm and can not get it out of a 90 degree angle which is important for the excercises. So hopefully this will heal up soon so I can have my arm back. I never realized how much I use this arm for things till I can't use it, especially shaving.

30 Day Shred Day 2

Day 2: Decided to do this when I got out of bed and before I showered and ate. I think I am going to stick to that because I feel more determined in the morning instead of when I am going to bed. I am working more on my eating habits today but again it will have to be tweaked for tomorrow because I slept in today and am eating brunch instead of breakfast. What I need to do is get up earlier and get the excercise out of the way before Sarah gets up. I will work that kink out tomorrow morning by setting an alarm.  Already on the second day I know that this is doing good for me because my muscles are sore from being used but not in a painful way. I feel much better from doing it as well so keeping up with sister is also keeping me motivated.  She is keeping up with the two times a day which props for her but I don't see myself doing that anytime soon. Well anyways my breakfast is smelling delicious so cya.

Started Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred

Summary: I decided to do this because my sister started it yesterday so she could feel good in her marine corp ball gown. Now in no way is she fat, she is quite gorgeous. I am doing this with her as a way to prove to myself that I can and also so we each have a partner to kick our butts when we think about stopping. Mind you her diet plan is a lot stricter than mine as I plan to stuck to 3 meals of decent food and my snacks will at times include gummy bears. So I will record on here my progress.


Day 1: Level 1: watched my food intake and trust me it was so hard to cut down on snacks. Started Level 1 today, had to definitely take a shower after as you will sweat. My starting weight and current size will be in the pictures. Wish me luck!

Sitting

I'm sitting here waiting for my husband to get home so I can go have a night out with a friend. It's been awhile since I've been out so I'm hoping it'll be fun. I always get anxious when I go out without my daughter and I'm wondering when that'll stop. Funny things being a parent makes you feel. You get anxious over things you know you shouldn't. Feel guilty when you want a break so much you could cry but as soon as you get that break you want to run back home. Makes no sense.

Reflection

Yesterday was a very bad day for me emotionally. I do not know why but every little thing that is bothering me from the past few months just came crashing down on me and I could not handle it very well. Honestly I think I'm falling back into depression because the signs are there. Right now the way I am handling it is trying my best to seperate myself from my family for a few minutes so I do not lash out at them. It is not working very well since we live in an apartment and I can't drive so seperation is hard to achieve. Today I am sitting here trying to sort through all my thoughts and my feelings during different situations.  It will take way more than today but I hope I get a start now.

Red dress

Okay so you are not yet aware of my absolute love of Jenny Lawson and her continual strength to overcome odds. A recent post of hers popped out at me about her red dress campaign. Which made me start thinking about the red dress I own that I never wear because I hate my body and try not to acknowledge it. The dress is form fitting and a bit plunging. After her post though I think I need to step back and look at what is good about my body and how to get what I want out of it. Self reflection is a terrible yet wonderful thing sometimes. I also need to complete a homework assignment today...fun stuff...boy do I hate doing the relating to other students in discussion questions things.

My beautiful Sarah

Good Morning!!

Fall is here!! I can not tell you how happy this makes me! You know how spring and summer invigorate most people? Well I personally really don't like Summer. I love Fall though. Fall means new beginnings to me. Means my favorite holidays and pumpkin flavored everything! As we speak I am enjoying pumpkin coffee. I love to see the different colored leaves and feel the cool air as I sit here typing this with the window open.  The Fall clothes are great too because they are the only style that complements me. Trust me I do not look good in shorts. But with Fall comes all my new projects so that should be tons of fun! I think once I get the cord to my sewing machine soon that I should open an etsy account as I will have a surplus of things laying around with all the activity I can do with sewing. Anyways I hope your Monday and week is beautiful because it is a wonderful day!

I went in Tuesday to get blood drawn and an MRI. Blood to see if I have diabetes which is a certain thing I am sure, MRI to see why I have migraines and have lost eyesight in one eye. Still no word on the results which I would just hurry up and come in. I know these tests take a while but I wish I could just know what to do to fix all the health problems I am having. Mostly I just want to stop being so damn tired all the time. On a wonderful note, The first day of FALL is today!! Albeit a bit hot but hey fall is here yea boi! Pumpkins and falling leaves. Corn Mazes and Halloween. All the beautiful things that make Fall my favorite season. I am baking a pumpkin pie today to celebrate. I would love to hear from all you wonderful people on what Fall means for you. If it is not your favorite season then what is and why?

almost 3 and let the fun start.

So my beautiful little girl is now expressing emotion, mostly anger, through tantrums. yay expression of independence!...not. I love being a mom and always knew I was meant to be a mom but dear grace does my patience get tested on an hourly(just had to get up to discipline again so make that every half hour) basis. She is at the point where everything gets thrown and no is her favorite yelling word. I was not wanting teenager at 3.  In the end mommy just puts her in time out and remembers that before 6pm is not ok for a glass of wine(personal rule).  Have to admit though, she is the cutest thing to have yelling at you...

Getting organized in life

I think it is about time to commit. Commit to making my life the way I want, commit to finishing things or keeping up with things. This blog for example. I am working with a friend to get an event planning business started. Us as a team could really get things jumping. Working on getting my degree and need to make improvements in that area. I have started exercising daily which trust me is a huge improvement for me.  It is about time I grow up and realize that I needed to grow a bit more. I just have to constantly remind myself change is good and should be accepted.

Yep my daughter is doing aerobics?

She decided it was better on the floor

Daily humor

These were collected over the past couple of weeks so I figured I would put them up today. Her with the pigtails was yesterday when our friend came to visit. They did matching pigtails at Sarah's insistence.

My daughter perched on top of the cat scratch reading a book

Yep my daughter is doing aerobics?

Daily Humor

Well I have decided that from now on at the end of the day I will post one amusing or weird thing my daughter did that day. She is quite an interesting child so there will something at the end of every day that I have either shaken my head at or it has made me laugh very much.  For example, the other day she took off her diaper which was dirty and took one of her toys which was a plastic dog bone for her stuffed dog.  She then proceeded to stick the bone in her dirty diaper and I quote, "Look Mommy I draw!"

Finding a name

I am sitting here thinking that I need to start putting together a portfolio of some of my interior design ideas. I also need a name for when I start my business.

Finals with a touch of death?

So I am really sick. No idea what it is but I will not describe the symptoms because they make me say gross.  So got sick yesterday and it is fianls week. YAY!!...not. Been dousing myself in caffiene of any kind and I am still worn out.  I did the work I had to today and now I will drug myself and sleep hopefully.  Just wish me luck because I need it.

Determined to be on top of the world

So reading is my biggest motivation for getting my butt into gear on anything but it usually has to be fiction. I have been down about doing school work lately and not feeling very motivated in life at all lately so I needed to read somethng that would motivate me.  Therefore I read Lipstick Jungle by Candace Bushnell, this is not my usual style since I am a big fantasy reader but I needed a change of pace.  Apparently it worked because I got up at 7:30 and started the day clearing out homework first thing this morning.I'm goign to try my hardest to keep up with this pattern and to get out of my funk that I have been in.  So wish me luck and feel free to yell at me if I lack.

My at home business

So as of January I am a Pure Romance consultant.  Which in a nutshell means I go to other ladies homes and talk about sex. It is a fun, safe environment and I get to help ladies with their sex lives.  Tomorrow is my first bachelorette party and I am so excited! It is a bit of a drive but I have a strong feeling it will be so worth it! I got all my stuff together today so that I am completly prepared tomorrow. Can't wait for some fun and to get out of the house for a bit.

I really need a job. Not just for the extra money but for the break from my family as well. This probably makes me sound bad but I really need a break from my family and my house as I am here every single day all day.

Coming back

So I was out of touch a bit because we moved. So now we are all settled and it's time for me to get everything else in order. Starting with routine. From now on I will get up at 7am go to bed at 10pm. I will accomplish my school work during nap time and once I get a desk I will organise my work and school info. My savings are now for a bike so that I can hopefully get a second job and just bike down the road. I will incorporate exercise every day so that I can get myself to body shape I desire. These are my goals snd I will stick to them.